|Time is passing so quickly.|
Of late, as I become a little better at stilling my restless thoughts, that small still voice that is neither inside or out, has whispered repeatedly that I need to Let Go of Everything. That is a tall order. I have done it before, but the woman who is faced with this daunting task now is not the same as the one who undertook much the same Path a quarter century or so ago. While she had no proof that the Freedom and Enlightenment she sought were possible, she had faith, she had trust, heart and hope. I, on the other hand, Know what can be attained, but those other assets are tarnished and worn. It is not Spirit or God that I have lost faith in, but Myself. My heart has not been wide open in a long time. I do not trust that I can let go and have the sort of fearless acceptance that this journey requires. There was a time in my life when I always told the Truth, to myself and to others. I do not lie now, but I have learned to keep my mouth shut, to evade and circumvent. There was a time when I was utterly Fearless. Now mild fear and anxiety pervade my life. Instead of being afraid of death or illness as so many are, I am mortally afraid that I will not be good enough, wise enough or brave enough to do all this again.
And most importantly, if I am ever to have peace in this life, I have to accept myself and hopefully at some point, Love myself again. That was the hardest part for that younger version of Self I mentioned earlier, but she did it and I think I can also. A song sung by Steve Winwood back in 1986 has been playing through my head for days now—Higher Love.
I could not agree more. A life without Love is not a life, and if Love is to have any meaning it must be unconditional and without reservation. Unconditional Love is easy to contemplate or give lip service to, but how many of us have ever truly experienced it? And how many of us have ever achieved it? To love with no expectations, no requirements, without judgment or culpability is a tall order unless you have first opened and cleared your own heart. So few of us, even in the case of our children, parents or God are capable of loving no matter what may come. We feel the sting of rejection, the pain of being ignored, or we suffer the affronts of disrespect or dislike on the other's part, and our first instinct is to react in kind. That is not Unconditional Love. To love unconditionally is to love the other whether that sentiment is returned or not, whether the beloved is present or away, and without judging that one's behavior or conduct. It is Love in its simplest form, without dilution or mitigation, and it is a magnificent gift to give or receive."Think about it, there must be higher loveDown in the heart or hidden in the stars aboveWithout it, life is wasted time"
|Weathered Dock-- a beautiful place to sit and contemplate.|
Blessings, and may you find your own Higher Love.